this morning i found myself flipping through my journal reading bits and pieces from the past few months. i’m a messy journal keeper. i write here, there and everywhere. you know what?? i’m okay with the mess. it makes for the best kind of surprise when i flip through a random notebook and find a random note.
here are two such random treasures…
often when you think you’re at the end of something, you’re at the beginning of something else. –fred rogers
and another from my friend (when i was five he really was my friend).
the greatest gift you ever give is your honest self. –fred rogers
i know that right at this very moment i am at the end of something and the beginning of something else. i wrote the other day (in a different journal – hehe) “i’m at the bottom and the top at the same time.” i’ve been in this place for about 5 months (or 37 years — all depends on perspective). sort of hanging out in limbo.
five(ish) months ago i laid myself bare and came out as a psychic medium. feels silly to phrase it that way but it’s how i’ve felt. sharing this side of myself with the people in my world has been received with mixed reviews. i had my moments where i wanted to climb back into or under something as i have felt both loved and slapped in the face by the experience. it’s been more wonderful and more difficult than i had imagined. ignorance is bliss until it isn’t.
i had to let go.
i know who i am and that is what matters most to me. my desire is to live an authentic life — to give the gift of my honest self.
more words and sharing to come. it’s time and i’m ready.
so consider this little bit my first honest gift.